December 2nd, 2022 – 1,528

I managed to do something I haven’t in weeks today. I made it to Mana. Getting my social life balanced into this hyper busy time is so important, and I have been suffering with loneliness that I haven’t been working hard enough to mitigate. Today felt like breaching the water’s surface and taking in a desperate hungry breath, as if I were far more fragile than I realised. Note to self, don’t go so long without going to Mana in future.

TFT is ticking along nicely, and VOL too as I get both up to ~3K chapters. This is quite a relaxing way to do target so I’m more than ok not starting a new novel just yet, even if I do feel I need to soon. Ideally I should pick something this side of Christmas, so I’m going to set a deadline of the 16th. God knows if I’ll stick to that.

December 1st, 2022 – 1,527

Wow it’s been a long week. Also since when did WordPress give me prompts? It’s asking me what technology I would be better off without and why? I could be a snarky git and say unsolicited prompts, but that seems a little mean and needless. I guess if I had to name one, it would be, um, you know I don’t think I have an answer to that. There’s no technologies in my life I didn’t put there on purpose, nor any that are useful but provide an outweighing amount of grief. The go to for most I would guess is their phone, but given it’s my main source of reading articles/ebooks/audiobooks/journals etc it would be a huge knock if I got rid of that.

Actually no I do know the answer and it’s super petty. I couldn’t think of one and then I looked at what sat on the Million Desk next to my phone and went ‘it’s the damn bank card reader 2FA checker isn’t it’. See, that still would be a net negative not to have because I don’t want all my money stolen, but it is an unmitigated faff. That is about as close as you’re gonna get from me; I may be a technoskeptic but I do like the technology I use, and donate what I don’t.

Oh and I did some writing. It was ok. I think I just need a bit of a break from study to get a better idea where it’s at, but I do think that my first arc – TUS, VOL, WHT, TSS and TFT – are all in at least ‘ok’ condition. A readthrough will confirm if they’re actually coherent, and then I have a few dozen edits for each of them sitting on Trello. I may be tired, but things are ticking along at least.

November 30th, 2022 – 1,526

I almost forgot to blog from being so out of it. I do seem to just crash hard on my rest days at the moment, and that’s not exactly sustainable because I end up losing a bunch of social time with people. It’s grim, and I need to do better at spending quality time with friends, as I’ve had pointed out to me a fair bit. And yay, 11pm blog, hype. This first term was rough as hell, and I need to figure this out going forward to keep it to one term, not four years.

Oh one cool note, for a brief moment after editing, but before I finished hitting target with TFT, both VOL and TFT were the exact same length: 96,062 words long. That’s pretty neat.

November 29th, 2022 – 1,525

Oh hi 11pm did you miss me? Damn it. I shouldn’t be surprised, I have had two awful nights’ sleep back to back through no fault, except that it’s cold and I was overtired. The one point of improvement I could have made was to find my paracetamol, which I keep failing to find and thus to take. Like, I have permission to take the full dosage allowable for a day, and I often take none, which is dumb. I am always in pain, why do I not make life easier on myself with this one simple tool? Honestly, at this point I think it’s just needing to form the habit to check in, and keeping it all in a sensible place.

So TUS, WHT and TSS are all ready for a final edit. VOL needs a lot more work, because the chapters are all weird lengths at present and I’ve had to break out a spreadsheet to figure out how to fix that – yes I know but this time a spreadsheet is justified! I’m working on TFT in the meantime as that’s more straightforward, but what I really need to do is find some great resources for planning a story, to write out the arcs as I see them, and then measure all these novels against that as a benchmark. If I can, that might use some of my brainpower tomorrow. But I will settle for writing sooner…

November 28th, 2022 – 1,524

Ok so target is slipping back towards 11pm again, which is not great, but I am starting to think I should take the data I have for the last three years – thanks to the 10 bullet journals that cover that time – and figure out what the mean time is I write by. I figure there’s two figures, one much more useful than the other I suspect: I figure the mean time I write by as a number on the clock is pretty useless, unless assuming I wake up from 8 hours of sleep each night at the same time, which, you know, weekends kind of undermine. The more useful figure, would be mean time since waking, with a matrix against how much sleep I got the night before, and maybe a three dimensional one for quality of sleep leading up until that point.

See normal people play video games in the evening, not plan out three/four dimensional matrices for data that honestly doesn’t matter. But hey I mean I do play video games too. I just, happen to use spreadsheets for those as well. I may have a problem.

November 27th, 2022 – 1,523

Got to visit my nephew properly today, which was a really lovely experience. Also as you might note, despite a busy day of that, eye tests and food shopping, as well as all the usual stuff, I am writing this before 8pm, so a huge win there too. This 4 day weekend did me a world of good, and I’m starting to feel a little less burned out, and a bit more present in the moment. I also bought a hot water bottle at long last, so I get to be warm while I’m at it.

I added another 1,000 words to WHT today, which is weird as that’s my most bloated manuscript, but I think I’m leaning towards getting every current chapter either t3K across all 14 books, or earmarked for merger with another, or cut. That way, I can start doctoring each in their own right, without worrying about hitting a 1.2K chapter which needs a bunch added, and then reincubation. It’s also letting me finally add in the 300+ notes of missing content and ideas I have backlogged on Trello! My god I do love Trello, best internet multitool there is.

November 26th, 2022 – 1,522

Wow, does it feel good to be writing this at quarter to three in the afternoon instead of 11pm! It does indeed. I got jabbed yesterday and it hasn’t been 24 hours yet, but the worst I’ve felt is the aching arm, which, well I ache all the time anyway so it’s not that hard to compensate for. Hoping I don’t just fall apart tomorrow or Monday, but it does at least look unlikely. And yes, I woke up today, took a chill start, and then did all my writing in a nice and timely way. I jumped from TSS to WHT, which is an odd choice to work on extending as it currently sits at 117K, but I want to get every book to having 3K~ chapters as that feels like a good starting point. Then I’ll go through and just start hacking at all 14 with a meat cleaver. TSS is now 111K, and I am pretty sure it’ll sit at closer to 90K once I’m done trimming.

But all that is in the future, I’ve earned a carefree day, and I’m gonna go back to digging up corpses in peace.

…In Graveyard Keeper, just so we’re clear.

November 25th, 2022 – 1,521

Got my Covid booster today, the advantages I guess of ‘multiple conditions’ and all that. Either way, one less thing to worry about, and I can go to America next year now that I’ll have a recent jab. I’m just hoping that I won’t have any side effects this time, because the last jab wasn’t pleasant at all. I ended up not going to Mana tonight, which I had planned to but just, lost my nerve I guess. It was also the realisation I needed a quiet evening to best avoid those side effects from last time. I, kind of regret that decision, but I think it was also the correct one. Still very low energy, but I’m not coming apart at the seams.

So I think that I’ve extended TSS as much as I should, and I have some options over what to do next. I started filling out a form for Radish, but I’m torn on if I want to go that route. I’m still not even sure if I want to build an audience or just exist in quite peaceful obscurity. Actually that’s a lie, I know I want the latter, but I feel like that’s not socially acceptable. But, I do want to write a webnovel, and that does imply publishing said novel on the web. I need to think on this more.

November 24th, 2022 – 1,520

Semi busy day, that is the morning was busy and the rest of the day was, not. But I didn’t sleep so well so the morning knocked me out a bit. But it was also the first time in years I’ve gone to a hairdresser, and it really helped. My confidence feels boosted because I’ve been super wary about going to places for a long time. It’s a little win. Time to crash.

November 23rd, 2022 – 1,519

Omg, Legends & Lattes is so good, it’s going on my go to list of comfort fiction, 100%. And, speaking of, I finally started listening to my other comfort listening again. It’s been a long time since I could just put on I’m Sorry I Haven’t a Clue and just enjoy it. I missed it in all its politically incorrect silly goodness. My soul is feeling soothed, and I’m feeling more at peace. And now, I have four days off, to just try and reset my batteries.

If I continue focusing on TSS, by this time next week it will be longer than WHT, which is a little surreal. But I’m planning on getting most of the books to that length, and then cutting them down to about 90K each, which I feel is the ideal length. Or if they end up staying long who cares, I’m not going a traditional publishing route anyway.