December 10th, 2019 – 440

I won’t be writing for too long as I want to get some rest. One full day left to get through tomorrow and then it’s the GE. It’s also my dad’s birthday. I hope he’s not going to have to spend the whole day in campaign mode. I’m pretty sure he hasn’t thought about his birthday once. Well aside for his present I’ve chipped in for – I can say with 100% certainty that he is not a reader but I’ll leave it cryptic – I’ll just have to channel myself into these last two days to help make them count.

Writing, I haven’t even thought about today. That’s a shame in a way as I am at an exciting part of the story and one I’ve looked forward to writing, but that also means I have a bank – an escape to get away from the GE. If I write each day, well I’m trying to ignore how devastation is the theme of the scene I’ll write on polling day. I’ll try but now I’ve written that it’s all I’m going to be able to think about. So I guess at least I’ll be thinking about writing, sort of? Yay?

December 9th, 2019 – 439

Last day at work before the GE on Thursday. I’m going to keep this pretty short, as I want to know my work queue is empty of urgent and timebound tasks. That way I can focus on the thing I am doing my best not to think about. Never let it be said that I am not a moron. Damn that double negative; I wonder why I am never going to get mainstream publication…

So I’m focusing on other stuff in my head. I ordered three of the Secret Lair products WotC released this month. I have a Bitterblossom, Life from the Loam, Bloodghast, Golgari Thug and The Ur-Dragon for my cube. The Sliver Overlord is going to be on the other side of my foil Onslaught Sliver Overlord. The Reaper King is getting it’s own deck: the Commander version of “There’s the Door”. The deck that forces you to kill yourself with Door to Nothingness. So yeah, I have cool stuff to take my mind off things.

Know what other cool things I have to distract me? That’s right wri-Stardew Valley. The latest update came out recently and I have been able to play it at long last. I’m having a blast; just having less stuff fall in the water is so nice. So yeah that’s nice. What else? What else…

Oh yeah this is meant to be a writing blog isn’t it? Well, I mean TSS is at 55k or so, like I said yesterday. I haven’t written anything yet today. 23 days to write 20k words is, well I’d feel ok about that on the old model. Now I’m treating story content every day as the norm, it should be no problem. So I was a bit silly about this, but writing is my biggest distraction. I’m gonna get back to work, but I am feeling pretty good. I don’t think I’ve ever been able to say I feel ‘good’ the week of an election in my life. At least one I was consious of. I missed 1992 by 4 days so, I mean I guess I was ok for that one? Ok enough rambling…

December 8th, 2019 – 438

About had a heart attack again today seeing my last post was the 7th. As much as I love my Fitbit, I hate that the date is in American format. If I can change that I have not yet – in 8 months – looked up how. This was the second of these minor heart attacks of wondering where entries for the 8th to the 11th were – thinking the day was the 12th today. That’s because I have already journaled. Yeah, I did today in the wrong order.

I’m keeping this short so I can sleep, but another 1,200 words of TSS, as near as makes no difference 55k now. 75k is my minimum, so I am 20k off with 23 days to go. Again, if you’d told me that when I was suffering from a chest infection overlapping a migraine a month and a half ago in mid-October, I would have slapped you. So I’m pretty happy. But in the end, I’ll only be able to relax after the actual 12th of this month. You better believe that unlike for TSS, my mantra for this week is “Let’s get this over with…”

 

On that note, goodnight.

December 6th, 2019 – 436

The weather outside reflects what I’m feeling today. That’s so cliche, but it’s true. It’s grey, messy, groggy and unpleasent. It’s one of those days where I am honestly tempted to use half of one of my precious remaining annual leave days. That’s not a choice I take on a whim; to it’s credit I’ve been mulling it since Monday. Even so that leaves me on one and a half days of leave. I am meant to be cancelling some leave to attend Woodcraft camp next year too. As much as I want to go to that, I regret saying yes, and slow process as it is, I’m accepting I need to cancel. Man that hurts to say.

One part of my life that isn’t trying to kill me is my writing, which is ironic as 7~ years ago it would be leading that charge. Still have not dropped a day of TSS in the last 40, and the story is at 51K. I’ve got a lot of web dev to do tonight. That’s one of the reasons a half day has appeal, but either way I’d still put the odds I make it 41 days quite high. It’ll likely be a take-out night too, but as I’m getting paid to do this web development I’m not feeling too bad about that. I guess we will see. I’m going to put my head down for now and get on with clearing the last of my queue.

December 5th, 2019 – 435

The joys of an election being one week out: I got nine hours of sleep last night and it’s as if I haven’t slept. I’m knackered and emotionally drained. That is not a great crucible for writing. Needless to say, I am looking forward to the day after polling day. Not least because I’m running a committee room – where you coordinate a “Get out the Vote” push – and I’m going to be at the count. It’s getting harder each day to not succumb to stress.

I’m keeping these short for now unless I need to vent, so for now I’m going to get back to work.