April 19th, 2023 – 1,666

“Describe a decision you made in the past that helped you learn or grow.”

Travelling to America. I still remember sitting in the lounge at dads when the topic of wanting to visit the states came up. I still saw it as this unaffordable future activity that hopefully I could do once before the year abroad but didn’t have my hopes up, as well as being a little scared about. I wanted badly to see my xirlfriend in person after two years together, but the fear of travelling alone, of that kind of vulnerability, and of managing myself so I didn’t fall apart, my god did it weigh on me. And, well what I learned was threefold: First, 1K works to ground me wherever I am. Two, that I want to spend the rest of my life with my partner; not a new revelation so much as confirmation. And third? I learned I’m tougher than I give myself credit. I just wish it didn’t hurt so much to be leaving now.

I’ll be ok. I’m proud of how I handled this trip. But it’s gonna be sad for a while. That’s ok, I’ll be back in a year or so if all goes to plan. I’ll just count off the days until them, a thousand words at a time.