March 19th, 2023 – 1,635

~ Sam Shuttleworth

“How would you rate your confidence level?”

Situationally dependant. And it depends what you mean by that. I can speak up in meetings, lectures and seminars, but I tend to get tongue-tied if asked about my own interests. I can speak to large groups and argue a case, but I hate arguing and prefer conflict resolution over ‘winning’. I can be smooth and charismatic, or if I’m agitated I can deteriorate into needing to not deal with anything for a long time. So overall, high confidence, high variance.

Speaking of variance, a late target yesterday followed by a pre-5pm one today makes this weekend a touch all over the place. Yesterday I was fine, chilled and unproductive, but then wrote double-target; today I’m in a lot of pain, anxious, got my writing done early and barely cleared a thousand. Both count as all I have to do is reach 1K, but I do prefer when one day and the next become interchangeable. Is that boring? Maybe for other people, but I will always take stability over novelty. Moved onto TWR chapter 4 now at least, and the novel is coming close to hitting that all important 90K threshold. Important for literally no reason other than 90K is a good general wordcount but a nice place for it to be. Still needs a ton of work.

Published by Sam Shuttleworth

I’m Sam, and I live to write. I spent most of the first 8 years of my adulthood trying to balance writing with a large amount of crap in my personal life, until towards the end of 2018 I threw everything out and started afresh with just my writing. I built the new me around one goal: I have to write at least 1,000 words a day. I called this goal 1K, and it changed my life. So long as I write a thousand words a day, the day is a success, and atop that I've managed over time to build the life I wanted all those years. My greatest flaws as a writer is I still use too many adjectives, adverbs, connectives as openers, accidental passive voice and I don't force my work down people's throats enough on pain of extreme and unusual torture. My greatest strength is I know my greatest flaws and I'm working on them.