“What are your favorite sports to watch and play?”

To watch, probably football, but I can’t play it. My legs give out way too fast because of all the sudden movements. Tennis is a watch and play. I do like rowing but I don’t row outside of my machine nor really watch it. Maybe I need to watch more sport.

Today was a good day. The day is irrelevant, my xirlfriend is insane. No seriously. They just casually bought me one of these:

I won’t say how much these are worth. Suffice to say, there’s only 1,000 of them, so, yeah you can probably guess. I am in shock. I really do not deserve them.

“What would you do if you won the lottery?”

I would book in to speak to a lawyer, I would consult on the best way to anonymously claim the ticket, and then I would claim the prize, put it in savings, and just pay myself an allowance out of it. It’s boring and it’s not especially altruistic, but as much as I hate to say it it’s the only smart path, as any other route just creates the potential to upend your life. Would I tell the people around me? Very few of them, but they might notice my generosity increasing. After all, I would pay myself a generous enough allowance to be able to pass on those benefits to others, as well as to support causes I care about. I’d keep working, and live off that money, so it’s more like the allowance is there for me if I need it, and to treat others and do good otherwise. Oh Look, I Just Described UBI How About That? Huh. Maybe We Should Have A UBI ok ok, I promised less politics and that one’s on me, it wasn’t even a political question. Granted every question is political if you think about it long enough.

Quick side note, I still don’t have the prompt appearing on the new post page like it should, but I found it shown on the landing page of WordPress’s admin end so that’ll do.

So I keep coming back to what to do with my stories. I feel like I need to put them out there a little bit more than just “here’s the Google Docs”, but I’m not too sure what that looks like. Maybe I need to investigate what options WordPress has for hosting ebooks. I’m not sure about it though as ideally, I’d want them to be in a form where I could release them as the ‘beta versions’ of the stories, while I still cross the i’s and dot the t’s, but is that the kind of thing a reader would be ok with? I guess it’s more like an open-beta. You know I wrote that out and realised that it’s literally what video games do all the time and feel remarkably silly now. I, guess I could make this happen. Hm…

I cannot fix the prompts issue, and I tried looking up some only to find it ruins the magic if you have to pick from a list. I cannot save my Writing settings and it’s just a shame, I liked the feature and now it’s just off-limits. But it’s ok, I’ll keep an eye on it and make do.

I didn’t manage to rest up quite like I’d wanted to this weekend, but it ended on a high note, and I am contented right now. I need to not be so silly about things that aren’t actual problems, and just go with the flow a bit more. Sorry for keeping that cryptic. I’m just chilling watching one of my favourite Twitch streamers, and feeling a little more optimistic about the week ahead. Here’s hoping that no major disasters occur, though the train strikes are going to be rough.

WordPress is being useless again, it won’t save changes to the Writing settings no matter how many times you save changes. I am kind of used to wordpress.com not being the best platform but it’s a little frustrating when it outright lies to your face like that.

Hey guess what, I’m keeping this one short, I know right, so out of character, but it’s because it’s been a long week, yesterday was lowkey wretched, and I just need to switch off for the evening. But hey, 7pm target so could be worse.

WordPress bugged and isn’t giving me a prompt anywhere. Ah well. I am so darn tired for real. I’m gonna go faceplant a bed. Sorry for the short post. Bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh.

Pokemon Legends Arceus is fun though.

“Name an attraction or town close to home that you still haven’t gotten around to visiting.”

I love all things aquatic. Always have. In Brighton, there is a Sea Life centre, billed as the world’s oldest aquarium. No brainer right? E’yep, if I have visited it ever, I’m too young to remember. Every time I see it I’m like “Oh yeah! I should go there!” – and then I never do. I should rectify that. But then that’s basically what I say when I see it so don’t hold your breath. Unless you end up in the tank, in which case do, and swim up. Ah, tired-me humour.

Not quite a 4 day week this week as I have a couple of things tomorrow, but this week marks the start of my new Monday-Thursday uni/college work schedule and, I am shattered. Granted, jumped in at the deep end but, I need to rest tomorrow best I can and tackle the next one for a more accurate picture, but I am gonna be exhausted by the end of the 10 weeks by this rate. Gotta pace myself, and maybe try to start the essays on Monday if I can too. It’s gonna be ok, I just need to approach this with logic, and as much self care as I can cram in. I decided to buy more Pokémon games today to give more variety to my downtime, so I now have at least one active playthrough in four separate Pokémon generations now. Variety I think is the thing that will help me the most right now, though, I do mean more than just variety of different Pokémon games…

“List five things you do for fun.”

• Writing. Well no kidding.
• Video games, mostly Pokémon and Minecraft right now, though I haven’t made enough time for it for a long time.
• Drawing/Art, but I’m even worse at making time for that.
• Wordle, which I always make time for.

Well, that’s a bit of a sobering intervention. I guess I need to find more things to do for fun. Life is going a little smoother at least, and if I can rest this weekend I will hopefully be back on my feet by Monday. But I should try and spend more time doing things for fun too.

“If you could make your pet understand one thing, what would it be?”

*sigh* Don’t have a pet. Would love one, but I do not trust myself to look after a living thing.

Rough day, sorry if this is a stub, but was not a positive experience at university today, and I am still so fatigued from the illness that even slowly ramping things back up is making me feel screwy. It is nice being back in the office though. I finished almost an hour ago but I decided to stick around to write and such because it’s just a nice place to do it. And now I can go home, and try to switch off I guess. There will be days like this. It’s how I respond to them that matters, and today I got everything I needed to do done, and will now go rest it off. All you can do right?

“Write about your first name: its meaning, significance, etymology etc.”

Um, Well it’s Sam, just like on the ^ sign. Great-grandfather’s name, maybe? Not sure, can’t remember. Was almost Isambard so, um, glad that didn’t happen. I’d say I would at least avoid the unfortunate initials but knowing my luck my middle name would begin with a B in that timeline instead of an M.

I ned to go and crash, today was nonstop and it was the first day back. At least with these prompts you get a little more than my old “keeping this short” + 4 sentences posts. But then you’re all imaginary so who cares how much I write. Yes I will keep calling you imaginary, on here and to your faces too. Nobody would read this.

Nobody sane would read this.

…Talking to imaginary people I feel like I am in a very glass house right now to make statements like that. Or proving my own point. Or not.

I need to sleep…

“What’s your dream job?”

Honestly, I dream less about what I would do for work and more the environment, so I can say with no irony, my current job is my dream job. It gives me support, fulfilment, flexibility to study and accommodation for my disability. That’s all I need to be content.

Didn’t get a ton of sleep so keeping this short and going to keep things nice and quiet today. But I am looking forward to uni tomorrow. Was a lovely evening.