July 16th, 2022 – 1,389

I wouldn’t call today a ‘chill’ day so much as a sick day, as I spent most of it in a woozy out of body state. That is, alarming, but not all that surprising. I’ve been under so much stress in my life these past weeks, months, years – you know, in general. Ok but in recent weeks, and even in the last week, moreso than usual is what I am getting at. As a result, I have found that I am starting to burn out, but I do have an ace up my sleeve, in that I have a long 10 days of leave from the 29th. Yes I still feel bad as to why those days are now ’empty’ but in a way, it’s still a blessing.

TEL is starting to enter a trickier phase, but I am finding one huge truth compared to the Horizon books. Incidentally whenever I blog about that trilogy it always annoys me I can’t say the HOR series as HOR was book one, so I’ve decided to say screw it and call it that anyway. I’ll update the sidebar at some point. Anyway the HOR series compared to TEL had the same kind of stakes, but they were so removed from normal life as I know it that the worldbuilding got in the way of my flow a lot of the time. I need to get better at worldbuilding in general, and I think this was one reason that series suffered. In TEL, I’ve come up with a new mini conflict for the Fun and Games out of nowhere and it’s so much more organic than most any I ever did for the HOR books. Setting matters. Knowing how to set a scene matters. I need to prioritise learning about that.

In my therapy sessions, we talk about the 54321 grounding method. You pick 5 of one sense, so five things you see for example, four of another so say sound, three touch, two smell, one taste. I think that’s the way it was explained to me but I imagine it can vary, and the point remains the same: you ground yourself by putting yourself in the moment by taking time to quite literally at times smell the roses. I need to do more of that in my writing too. Maybe I need to do a 54321 edit?