June 20th, 2022 – 1,363

Another long day. They’re all long at the moment. I came very close to managing to find some calm before the thing I’m dreading tomorrow, namely finding out what this referral for my health turns up. In a cruel twist, I either end up with a diagnosis that while benign has no cure, or I don’t get the diagnosis, and that might actually kill Project4. And that was before the evening deteriorated. Just gotta try and keep above water right? Mum said I looked very tired today. I really wish I was better at hiding it. It’s been a long year. But at least, hopefully, this wretched book will be done tomorrow. One less thing to worry about.

Very tired.