May 31st, 2022 – 1,343

So this month was a rough one, I think we’re all on the same page about that. I mean, we’re all on the same page about everything, all the people reading this are either me or figments of my imagination, but whatever. May is often a rough month, and that has held true through every year of 1K so far. But aside from sleep issues, it’s been far from the worst, albeit that was 2020, and 2020’s May, June and July are all hard ones to top. Obviously I exclude the Sussex University years from that because, well I can’t distinguish individual months there so good, though I do know June/July 2013 were worse than lockdown. No I’m not kidding, the Sussex years put the Covid years to shame.

My partner is now at least as if not more prolific in daily writing as me, and I am looking to take a leaf from their book when it comes to the post-STO years. In particular, I am planning to have a ‘deck’ of projects, and perhaps a physical one I keep on me. If I want to work on specific stuff, I can reduce the number of projects in the deck, and if I am burning out on one in particular, I can increase the options instead. I think this is going to revel where my actual limit lies, as I am pretty sure if I allow myself to jump around too much I’ll lose my flow, but my hyper rigid approach – while good for churning out first drafts fast one by one – is not great for my long term wellbeing when I hit a bad project. The Horizon trilogy were all bad projects, and I had no release valve. It’s like I’ve been writing the same book every day for 8-9 months with no breaks, and boy has that taken a toll.

In theory, if I jump around, and so long as I don’t drop too many projects, I should be as productive as with my current approach, as I will with luck end up with less gravely-ill projects. I believe any draft can be saved, but it takes more effort for some than others. TSS took no effort, the book I wanted to write just needed time to ferment; HOF is going to be full level intensive surgery, and I think I’ll be cutting the Fun and Games as written in almost its entirety. I bring this up because I cannot for the life of me decide where TUS fits on that scale. I love the book, and that’s even when I separate the fact it’s been a project I’ve worked on in some way or another for like, 14 years or so at this point. Yes, I had the idea a long, long time before it took form in 2012. In fact, Heather as a character goes back close enough to 22 years. You can see then why I want to get this one right, and of late, I’ve been editing between 3 and 30 words a day. In the last three days I’ve done several hundred. I guess I just needed to wait for the moment. So I sure as heck hope the Horizon series gets one of those in time.