January 26th, 2022 – 1,218

Abdominal pain sucks. Like, royally sucks. I feel like I’m barely holding together, but at least I can confirm, not you-know-what. Actually I’m pretty certain I know exactly what caused this, and as much as my gut is set on Project4, it sure seems like it wants to knife me for it. That isn’t hyperbole, I feel like there’s a knife being twisted in my abdomen and it is remarkably hard to stay composed.

Also I think at this point I’m resigned to the Horizon trilogy not coming out great in the first drafts. But that’s ok, I can fix that in edits or rewrite them or whatever they need. Point is, I don’t feel keen beating myself up for that when I’m feeling plenty beaten as it is.