April 18th, 2021 – 935

Well, it took all my time off to do it, but I feel calm and back in control. Flat is still messy but I will get on top of that after work if my mood holds out. And, it took 85 days, which is 10 above my average but does account for going 10K over the wordcount estimate, but earlier tonight, I finished typing up TWO. It’s a bit of a mess, and I do not think I am finished with the handwritten version yet, but it’s time at last to put it in a drawer and walk away for a little bit to let it ferment. I enjoyed writing this one, in spite of the heavy subject matter, and how my motivation for writing in general proved strained at times. This is the kind of book 1K makes possible for me, because being forced to work on it every day also forced me in real time to figure out the problems as I went. Sure it still has plenty, but the re-rewrite will be a lot smoother.

Other than that, today I chilled. I played some Phasmophobia, which is such an unlikely game for me to like still but I’m loving it. I watched a friend stream Monster Train, which again was super chill. I had a couple of margaritas, and found out that agave syrup adds, nothing to the drink so that was a bit of a waste, but hey maybe it’ll be nicer in other concoctions. And I also bought a bunch of Reserved List Magic cards for, god knows what reason. They’re not good cards but I didn’t realise they were still affordable and I wanted to snag them to avoid a price gouge later. So yeah, all in all a good day, and exactly what I want out of a last day of holiday. Am I dreading work? Kinda, if only because I always worry about stuff I oversee catching fire if I’m away. On the whole though, dare I say it, I feel, ok. Now if you’ll excuse me, imma go sleep. I really hope my sleep routine is fixed now…