March 4th, 2021 – 890

When I was younger, I used to love listening to my records over and over again. It took me, a lot longer than everyone else to move away from casette and LPs to digital, which I think did stunt my music development quite a bit, and of course, meant a lot of the parts of my childhood I loved would, inevitably over time, deteriorate. This hasn’t got a point except to reflect my less than rosy mood right now, unless talking about The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy. I have to this day got the LP edition, in its pretty 80s-style blue slipcase. I would listen to it over and over again, and the quotes got lodged in my head. In the last 9 years or so when my memory first appeared to start getting worse – aging I suppose – a lot of those quotes left me. But you know one universal truth that’s included in the first few minutes? I don’t even know if Douglas Adams meant it as an absurd joke or not, but if he did, he hit the nail on the head:

It must be Thursday, I never could get the hang of Thursdays

Wow, you took ^ all that to say you had a bad Thursday, I hear you thinking my imaginary reader. Well yes, because I can be as rambling and incoherant as I want to be, and because it’s true damn it. Friday has the good grace to lead into the weekend; Sunday leaves a daunting week ahead but it’s a day off; Monday is, well Monday, but it’s Monday for everyone so no one judges you for it; Tuesday you’re just awake enough to be in a state of flow, and not yet burning out; Wednesday you start to get tired but I mean hey, 50% battery is still battery.

And then, there’s Thursday. No batteries. No day off tomorrow. No sense of being any closer to said day off because it just feels like the second half of a 48 hour Wednesday. I empathise with you Arthur Dent, I can’t get the hang of this damn day either. It still blows my mind that 1K started on a Thursday – one of maybe 8 good Thursdays I’ve had in my life. Well suffice to say, today wasn’t a good one. Nothing bad happened, but my mood, oh boy it’s been a struggle. I need to figure this out if I’m gonna be in a weekday 9-5 for the rest of my life. And, if I end up going alone at some point, you better believe I’m going to adopt the ‘Weekend Wednesday’ model from CGPGrey. Watching his videos helped lift my mood today at least, one of my go to channels for ‘I need comfort’, along with Tom Scott and Stephen Colbert. Also Down The Rabbit Hole at the moment, and a bunch of those voice actor channels, like PM Seymour, Luke Correia and ProZD.

Can you tell my brain is spaced out right now? I think it’s the fatigue, because I am so tired. It’s not the kind of tired sleeping shifts, not on its own. I’m getting closer to ok but the home stretch is a tightrope with no safety harness or net to catch me. I really cannot afford to fall off again. TWO is going well at least, and my space is neat and tidy. I just wish my head was.