February 28th, 2021 – 886

UpWork decided to go down for an additional four hours downtime yesterday, so I didn’t get to sleep until past 4am. That proved a grim start to the last day of the month and yet, while today wasn’t ‘great’, it wasn’t awful either. I’m seeing in little ways how I am doing tasks right away, picking up detritus, and getting tasks for the flat done in quick succession. I have struggled to get to the other end of the day much as I have to get to the other end of the month, but I’m still on my feet – not literally I’m at my desk – and I’m still fighting. That’s all I can ask for.

Tomorrow I start writing Chapter 18 of TWO. That’s important because it’s the midpoint of the novel, where the story sees a dramatic pivot in plot, tone, and for that matter, perspective. I’m quite excited because what I’m doing is delving into a type of storytelling I have little experience of, and through a character I am immensely fond of. It’s going to be an interesting exercise if nothing else, and one I feel that will serve the story, and the audience’s perspective on the plot twists and turns from here on out. And, well I’m starting to enjoy writing again. I’ve been struggling with it for the last week or so but today, the words came without as much angst. That’s gotta be a good sign.

In 8 days, the UK in theory leaves lockdown. In practice, I doubt much if anything will change, but it does mean that there is a faint glimmer of hope. I still think another lockdown is far from out of the question, but I also think we’re closer to the end of this mess than the start. My initial prediction of this extending into 2022 may yet prove wrong, as I sincerely hope it will. And I feel, right now, like I’m starting to put myself back together. The pieces have been scattered ever since the stressful start to the 19/20 Academic Year, the General Election, and of course the Pandemic. And other stresses will emerge. I still have mountains to climb that I cannot even see on the horizon yet, many at least as high as the largest I have yet scaled. But, I also feel like after over a year and a half, I’ve found the right climbing gear to tackle them.