October 11th, 2020 – 746

Doing better today. I had a bit of a rough time earlier, and I have ended up overeating yet again, but I think that’s because when I shop in a low mood I tend to pick up the absolute worst temptation food. If there’s one upside, I have eaten most of that up front, but still that’s at least 2,000 calories I shouldn’t have given myself access to. Thankfully I am back at work tomorrow which means a lot of walking, and hopefully a lot more deficits for a bit to even things out. Right now maintaining is more important than losing though, so I have to make sure to, you know, eat.

I wrote a short story, which fair warning has bad language right from the first sentence, but it was nice to do one of these. It’s been a while since I did one in my normal style, as oppose to more of a poetic fluffy piece like my “One More Day” story I wrote a while back. Come to think of it I can’t remember if I linked that here, and should put that on WattPad anyway. Couldn’t hurt. I did just shy of 1,800 words of that, then 1,250 of TWR, so this was on paper a 3,000 word day. Not too shabby for a weekend I must say. And I think having a really tidy flat helps there too, making it easier to keep my spirits up.

I am finding that when I gravitate towards music right now, it’s all mood sapping or overly emotional instrumentals that drain in their own way. I mean don’t get me wrong I love that kind of music, but I need to start working in more happy and less aggressive/sad/intense music. It’s not quite as simple as saying my mood affects my music tastes or vice versa, but I know that it’s a mix somewhere between the two, and that I have to fight my mood to force in some more positive vibes. I’ll try that at work tomorrow, between listening to IT. Come to think of it, that’s not exactly ‘happy go lucky’ itself…