February 27th, 2020 – 519

So I’ve made a tough decision, and one I do not relish. It means I have to do a lot of new planning, and will need to adjust a lot. My plan for the next three and a half years will look a lot different once I am done. And, I do not know if my work will be better for it. But it’s the right thing to do. From TFS onwards, and with two exceptions, I will type my first drafts. That might not sound like much, but it is a big shift for me. I type my first drafts to try and tease out better stories. But while this is a hobby, I don’t have the time to do that.

It, well it hurts to do this. I have no way of knowing if I’m good enough to trust I’ll get things right enough the first time to save them. You’re not supposed to nail the first draft. But, by forcing myself to redo each book no matter what, I force myself to question what I’ve written. I end up with two books for each book. TUS’s handwritten draft of 8 years ago bears almost no resemblence to the final version. Even WHT is close to unrecognisable. But how much value am I adding? I don’t know if this is procrastination, or if it is vital to the process.

I will be writing in a new way after WHT. First drasts I will write straight into Hemingway. When I upload chapters I will reread them with vigor, editing without care for any darlings contained. This is much as I write already, but I am doing away with so much at the same time. It will be a surreal, and not altogether pleasent transition, but if I am to ever make a success of this, I need a lot of content. I have to write faster, more, and longer, and get it into the world quicker. But all that is to come. For now, it’s time to get back to work.