January 7th, 2020 – 468

It’s been a busy start to the working year – job wise anyway – so it should be no suprise I’ve had a few stress spikes already. I used to view these as a symptom of being out of control of the world around me. Now I have decent systems and stratagies for dealing with the deluge, I see them for what they are: normal. Stress is after all the sensation of our brains trying to focus on a task. Overwhelming stress is by and large when we focus on too many tasks at once. For the record, too many tasks is any more than one.

I’ve not had the same chance to convert 10 minutes of break into a writing session. I’ll be staying until 6pm anyway though so that’s not a huge deal. Even so, knocking out 300-400 words before 4:30 goes a long way towards a smoother target. I’ve noticed I have a bit of an all-or-nothing approach to hitting a thousand at the moment. I either go all in, or I say “eh, not enough time/energy to do it all.”. That is not how 1K was ever meant to work. I can chip off 100 at a time if that’s what I need to do. After a break, it’s like a full reset but with a lower target. In other words, a much better way to live in general.

WHT itself is going great even so. 6,000 words in and in the middle of chapter 4, the story already has intrigue, excitement and the paranormal. Yes I will need to rewrite it again in time when I publish the chapters, but to be honest it has come out pretty great. I have author’s bias though so I would say that, and that’s why we put our stories in a drawer. Distance helps you spot the blemishes that the eye of the beholder excuses.

Bullet journal is still going strong too. Work one has helped me get a view on all my ongoing tasks. I’ve sent a few into the abyss where they needed to go for awhile, and got a few done that I was resisting. As for the latter, it’s hard to say in general what the block was. I can’t even gurantee that a bullet journal will solve those in furure. My guess though, is that I resisted a lot of them because I didn’t have the theraputic side of the journal. Trello is great at keeping all your tasks in view, but not in letting you get a grip on where your brain is. As a result, it tends to feel a bit clinical, and I am able to disconnect with thorny tasks. Here’s hoping the journal fixes that.

Right back to work. This entry took several hours because I kept dropping it to get back to incoming tasks. In a way, that’s not a bad thing. Like the bullet journals this blog reflects my day. And to be blunt: it’s nice not doing it at 9/10/11 at night.