June 30th, 2019

Yep, still short of target. I wanted to wait to write this when I was fuming a bit less, but that’s banned it seems. You know that feeling when you just want to smash something, preferably against someone? Yeah I’m not in a great mental space all told.

That’s hyperbole, I’m not quite that bad, but I’m seething still at how hard it is to get left alone. My new policy is I’ll ask politely, and if that doesn’t work I’ll just have to make said requester regret existing for a few years. Ok so maybe it wasn’t hyperbole but the internet is written in ink and I really would prefer to not look like a sociopath.

It all comes down to my time being mine, and other people being, well, bad. I know right, shocking that people can suck. I’ll let you in on a little secret: I suck too at times and am being a massive hypocrite. Believe it or not that’s what I find the most frustrating.

I think there is only one solution though: I’m going to kill off most of my social life. It’s just not worth the hassle. I’m not anti social per say, but I prefer my own company, and if given that I can achieve a lot. I am a life long introvert who for years felt obliged to be an extrovert. And, funnily enough, I’m sick of it. Screw other people amirite imaginary reader?

I do need to stop having these little chats in such a public setting but what are you gonna do. With luck one day I’ll be a full time writer, and while I’ll need to talk to a lot of people, I will also be able to, politely, tell people to let me get on with my work. Or you know I could just go back to plan A, but I like my glassware…