Yesterday was my day off from work, and in a more extreme form than weekends it threw me off my schedule. I should be used to this by now but I’m incapable of dealing with it right. I should have written in the morning, but I’ve been ‘all-go’ for so long that I couldn’t wrestle myself out of bed until 10. Hospital appointment was followed by visit to Mana Gaming because hey, it was my day off. And once again I found myself rushing to target at the last minute. And I wrote my blog post late to add insult.
So I’m going to change this up a little. From now, writing my blog post is going to be my 10am. I am writing this post at 4 minutes past, and given I’m on the clock most 10ams I will be lenient to work around my real commitments. But I have to write at 10am what I did yesterday and what I’ll do today. On a related note, unless I feel like it I’m not doing the “what will I do tomorrow” part anymore as that felt like duplication.
So yesterday, I hit target typing up Volcano. Today I want to take another chunk out of Volcano Chapter 5, and then do Unreachable edits so I can hit publish as soon as possible. I’m only a week overdue as of today so I want to keep it within February.
Short one as I messed up and didn’t write this up till now: I ended up being lazy today and didn’t get 1,000 words of Chapter 5 done. I typed up 1,000, and now need to get some sleep. I need a proper holiday.
Tomorrow I want to do 1,000 more words of Chapter 5. I hope I do.
Oh. Dear. God. Yesterday I managed to do what I said I would here: I wrote 1,000 new words of Volcano. That feels great. You know what doesn’t feel great? Only finding out your arch nemesis ten years into your writing training.
Oh lordy, so I overuse this word and its demon offspring far worse than I feared. I knew I used it and shouldn’t, in the same way I use far too many adverbs – or, well any adverbs. Don’t use adverbs kids. But thing, things and something turn out to be the unholy trinity I did not appreciate until now.
Over 500 words in Unreachable. That’s one in one hundred and fifty words. That’s one every two paragraphs on average. That’s, awful. I am cringing and I can’t believe I’ve exposed people to that.
So tonight, I am issuing a premature pardon: I will type up words of Volcano to reach target if I fail with Unreachable. And before I do, I’m purging EVERY SINGLE INSTANCE OF THE WORD “THING” FROM UNREACHABLE.
And, then tomorrow lets do 1,000 words of Chapter 5. And book some therapy. Over 500. It’s a good thing – ARGH – I’m going to the hospital tomorrow because I feel sick right now.
I haven’t written a single word yet. Today I just didn’t hit my stride at work, and felt distracted and messed up. I got my job done, then found myself burned out. I don’t want to be in this rut. It’s not writers block because the block is stopping me even type up my existing words. I need to break through this, and write some new content.
I will now try and write 1,000 words of Chapter 5. Then I will try to do this during the day tomorrow. I can find my groove again. It’s been a strange few days, I think caused by me worrying over a few things that I really don’t need to. They all come under the heading of what will be will be, and I can and will bounce back from them.
What makes me a writer isn’t the days or chains of days where the words flow. It’s the days like these where I get the job done despite what my brain throws at me. This is a phase. It will pass. And it’s the actions I take during it that will shape where I go from there.
1,000 words. Let’s do this.
The last two days have been a bit off for me. I still managed 1,000 words on both days of pure story content, which a month ago would be counted as a fantastic day in both cases. But my standards are shifting. I’m comfortable with 1,000 words of typing up being my floor.
Today I would like to do 1,000 of new content, but I agree with shattered-me yesterday that doing a type up might be better. I think I’d get pretty close with 1,000 to finishing Chapter 3 on Google Docs (available over there >). I’d like to follow that up with Unreachable edits, as I want to publish the eBook soon.
If I’m doing typing today though, I want to get right back to new content on Monday. I can do better than chaining type ups. That’s a surreal thought, as I used to average 12 brain-dumps to hit target a month, and this month I haven’t done that once. Funny how values change over time. Wonder where I’ll be by the end of the year.
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I had a restful day, but because of this I didn’t get a whole lot done. I’m finishing up my target for today, but it’s going to all be typing up. I don’t regret this, I needed to have a more relaxed day because I was buring out pretty bad.
Tomorrow I think I’m going to just do another 1,000 typed up. Ambition is good, and I’m glad that I’m pushing myself. That all being said, I am making myself very run down, and that is not sustainable. I don’t want to lose the habit, but I’m under enough strain right now that I’d prefer to avoid pushing myself over the edge.
Just a super quick one. Hit target with 700 words of Chapter 5, and 300 typed up. It’s been a weird night, I was barely awake or actually asleep for most of it.
No more writing tonight apart from my journal; tomorrow I’ll try to get another 1,000 of Chapter 5. For now though I just need to sleep…