February 21st, 2019

Yesterday was my day off from work, and in a more extreme form than weekends it threw me off my schedule. I should be used to this by now but I’m incapable of dealing with it right. I should have written in the morning, but I’ve been ‘all-go’ for so long that I couldn’t wrestle myself out of bed until 10. Hospital appointment was followed by visit to Mana Gaming because hey, it was my day off. And once again I found myself rushing to target at the last minute. And I wrote my blog post late to add insult.

So I’m going to change this up a little. From now, writing my blog post is going to be my 10am. I am writing this post at 4 minutes past, and given I’m on the clock most 10ams I will be lenient to work around my real commitments. But I have to write at 10am what I did yesterday and what I’ll do today. On a related note, unless I feel like it I’m not doing the “what will I do tomorrow” part anymore as that felt like duplication.

So yesterday, I hit target typing up Volcano. Today I want to take another chunk out of Volcano Chapter 5, and then do Unreachable edits so I can hit publish as soon as possible. I’m only a week overdue as of today so I want to keep it within February.

February 20th, 2019

Short one as I messed up and didn’t write this up till now: I ended up being lazy today and didn’t get 1,000 words of Chapter 5 done. I typed up 1,000, and now need to get some sleep. I need a proper holiday.

Tomorrow I want to do 1,000 more words of Chapter 5. I hope I do.

February 19th, 2019

Oh. Dear. God. Yesterday I managed to do what I said I would here: I wrote 1,000 new words of Volcano. That feels great. You know what doesn’t feel great? Only finding out your arch nemesis ten years into your writing training.

Thing.

Oh lordy, so I overuse this word and its demon offspring far worse than I feared. I knew I used it and shouldn’t, in the same way I use far too many adverbs – or, well any adverbs. Don’t use adverbs kids. But thing, things and something turn out to be the unholy trinity I did not appreciate until now.

Over 500 words in Unreachable. That’s one in one hundred and fifty words. That’s one every two paragraphs on average. That’s, awful. I am cringing and I can’t believe I’ve exposed people to that.

So tonight, I am issuing a premature pardon: I will type up words of Volcano to reach target if I fail with Unreachable. And before I do, I’m purging EVERY SINGLE INSTANCE OF THE WORD “THING”  FROM UNREACHABLE.

And, then tomorrow lets do 1,000 words of Chapter 5. And book some therapy. Over 500. It’s a good thing – ARGH – I’m going to the hospital tomorrow because I feel sick right now.

February 18th, 2019

I haven’t written a single word yet. Today I just didn’t hit my stride at work, and felt distracted and messed up. I got my job done, then found myself burned out. I don’t want to be in this rut. It’s not writers block because the block is stopping me even type up my existing words. I need to break through this, and write some new content.

I will now try and write 1,000 words of Chapter 5. Then I will try to do this during the day tomorrow. I can find my groove again. It’s been a strange few days, I think caused by me worrying over a few things that I really don’t need to. They all come under the heading of what will be will be, and I can and will bounce back from them.

What makes me a writer isn’t the days or chains of days where the words flow. It’s the days like these where I get the job done despite what my brain throws at me. This is a phase. It will pass. And it’s the actions I take during it that will shape where I go from there.

1,000 words. Let’s do this.

February 17th, 2019

The last two days have been a bit off for me. I still managed 1,000 words on both days of pure story content, which a month ago would be counted as a fantastic day in both cases. But my standards are shifting. I’m comfortable with 1,000 words of typing up being my floor.

Today I would like to do 1,000 of new content, but I agree with shattered-me yesterday that doing a type up might be better. I think I’d get pretty close with 1,000 to finishing Chapter 3 on Google Docs (available over there >). I’d like to follow that up with Unreachable edits, as I want to publish the eBook soon.

If I’m doing typing today though, I want to get right back to new content on Monday. I can do better than chaining type ups. That’s a surreal thought, as I used to average 12 brain-dumps to hit target a month, and this month I haven’t done that once. Funny how values change over time. Wonder where I’ll be by the end of the year.

February 16th, 2019

– The text didn’t post properly so editing to writing this up again –

I had a restful day, but because of this I didn’t get a whole lot done. I’m finishing up my target for today, but it’s going to all be typing up. I don’t regret this, I needed to have a more relaxed day because I was buring out pretty bad.

Tomorrow I think I’m going to just do another 1,000 typed up. Ambition is good, and I’m glad that I’m pushing myself. That all being said, I am making myself very run down, and that is not sustainable. I don’t want to lose the habit, but I’m under enough strain right now that I’d prefer to avoid pushing myself over the edge.

February 15th, 2019

Just a super quick one. Hit target with 700 words of Chapter 5, and 300 typed up. It’s been a weird night, I was barely awake or actually asleep for most of it.

No more writing tonight apart from my journal; tomorrow I’ll try to get another 1,000 of Chapter 5. For now though I just need to sleep…